Romantic Mood

I am not into romantic movies that much, but I feel an urge for needing them these days. Maybe because I am missing out in romance in my life now and maybe because I feel the need to be needed and I am missing on being missed and being taken care of.

Although I feel complete, but there is just this missing part, that doesn't seem to be completed anytime soon. There is a thrill and a shiver I am missing, there is passion that I can't find and there is love that I have and absolutely love but still there is something missing.

Well, that was a bit hard for me to say but I said it, cause I promised my blog I won't keep anything away from it and ii will always be honest. Its sad that I am personify-ing my blog, but it seems that its my only happy place now. My blog understands me, and give me a chance to say and share everything, without getting board or refusing to watch. My blog gives me love that I never experienced!

I feel so weird after writing all of that, anyways I am watching now a movie that I don't really like but for my sudden need for romance I want to watch. I am watching "habibi daaeman" a romantic Egyptian movie. :)

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Untitled!

The cure for boredom is curiosity, There is no cure for curiosity

~Dorothy Parker

Like a child I might be curios and like a lion I might be nervous but most of all I am like a person who seeks perfectionism, I am a woman who likes every thing to be perfect look perfect, although I might not be a perfect women and I dont look perfect, but every thing I do has to be perfect. I have perfect timings, perfect plans, perfect work, perfect projects and most of all a perfect man at least he is perfect for me!

I love surprises and I love being unorgnized and crazy, but still I love plans, I love to make things ready, I love to know what the next step is going to be, or how it is going to happen. My personality have a lot of contradictions and  a lot of question marks. I am sane and yet insane, I am ordinary and yet original, I am organized and yet chaotic, I am lazy and yet very active, I am pessimistic and yet optimistic, I am aggressive and yet tender and most of all I am dependent and yet very very very very independent!


I don't see a problem of being crazy at times but when work starts you get your mind together and start being sane. I don't see a problem of being an ordinary person who does ordinary things but when its time to shine the original creative part of you strikes out. I don't see a problem of being a messy person in your room and papers and yet you manage to have an organized chaos, and when work time comes you tend to be very picky, precise and organized with your work and how it is presented. I don't see a problem of being lazy and out of mood and when its time to have fun and work you turn to this active energetic person that can not and will not be stoppable. I don't see a problem with being an optimistic person who has an pessimistic moments that makes you throw the towel and turn your back on life. I don't see a problem of being an independent strong woman who orders people and stand out in the crowd, and when she comes home and through her self in the arms of her man, she turns to this very weak, dependent woman, that needs to be loved and needs a hug that will make all the pain and hard work throughout her day vanish.

So this is basically my life and this is basically who I am and again who I am is who I want to be and I am so damn proud of who I have become.

N.B: I am Gemini

Don't Really Feel Like Writing!

 “I have a huge, active imagination, and I think I'm really scared of being alone; because if I'm left to my own devices, I'll just turn into a madwoman.”   
- Claire Danes 

I don't really feel like writing today, I just feel a little bit bored actually very bored! I don't feel comfortable and I feel confused, and scared, scared but I just don't really know what I am scared of. Maybe I am scared for being happy or even scared of being depressed or scared of being a failure or scared for the sake of being scared.Well I just didn't want today to pass without a post I don't want to loose my momentum as they say! But it's true I am bored I am tired but I am not feeling bad I just feel bored and scared and worried and....ARGHHHH!!! I just need to feel safe I need every thing to go smoothly I need things to go the way I want them and I want them fast. Well it's not that fast rumor has it; IT HAS BEEN A WHOLE YEAR!. So things are not that fast, I just want them to happen fast now, I guess it is about time, I am confused and worried and scared and yet I don't want to cause pressure to anyone and share my feelings about this particular situation with anyone!

Well I guess I just have to wait!