Taxi Driver or an Entrepreneur!?

A couple of months ago I took a Cab from work like I normly do, yet there was something that is so not normal about it. Books and magazines where everywhere , 2 netbooks where attached to the back of the chairs, a small basket that has game boys & PSPs was set on the front seat. 

I started looking at books, I found a collection of old and new English and Arabic books, some where for Naguib Mahfouz, Abbas EL Akkad, Dan Brown, Paulo Coelho and more. 1 Minute after I have entered the taxi, the driver start telling me you can use what ever you want for free, but if you need internet tell me, because it requires a fees. 

I started talking with the driver, he was a young man in his late 20's , well dressed, pleasant looks, and a not so bad English accent. He started asking me about my experience with other Taxi drivers and what are the things that I hate about riding taxis, he started to scribble things while I was talking on a piece of paper attached to the driving wheel. 

After 10 minutes of riding the taxi, figured that his name is Eslam, and this is his privately owned car, Eslam told me about his dream of having his own business, yet this business was still in the same career of taxi driving he was pursuing. Eslam wanted to gather all his taxi driver friends in one company, dedicated to driving people on-call. He wanted to create a website and FB page promoting the business, his idea was to create a profile for all drivers, with their pictures and complete info about them and about what they do, he wanted to enhance the experience for customers and he wanted to demolish the bad image people have about taxi drivers, he wanted to create a safe place for people to go to. Eslam also mentioned having cabs that are drove by women, so it would be easier and much more comfortable for ladies. 

After this pleasant 30 minutes ride, I started thinking should this taxi driver be considered as an entrepreneur!? He certainly has the spirit and the qualities that qualifies him to be so , and according to WikiPedia an entrepreneur is  an owner or manager of a business enterprise who makes money through risk and initiative! 

I believe that this young man has all what it takes to be a very successful entrepreneur!

Whtats very amusing about Eslam is that, he is not resenting what he is doing, he is not unhappy about his job, he loves it and he is trying to work so hard to make it better for him and for others around him. He worked with the capabilities he had, he didnt wait for an opportunity to come out of no where, he focused and he will start launching his project very soon!

What I regret on not doing is forgetting to take his phone number, a man with an initiative  like this is worth giving attention, and support!

صوت الميدان

سمعت صوت الميدان قلبي اتنفض
المصري أهو يا ولاد واقف زي الأسد

صوت الميدان مسموع و طالع في العالي
مليان شجن و دموع على شهيد غالي

و الله عليكي يا بلد جامدة و قويه
شبابك ضحوا عشان كرامة و حرية

لمسوا قلب المصري إلي ماشي جنب الحيط
صوته اتنبح في قول  اتمرمت و اتهديت

بيكو رجعله صوته و كرامته من تاني
ده الحرية غالية يا ولاد ماترجعش في ثواني

شباب عرف الصمود و الحب و الإصرار
عزيمته و قوته هيخلقوا  استقرار

 صوتكم يا أغلى  شباب خبط على كل باب
عدى بحور و تلال و غزى كل البلاد 

شباب مضطهد مغمور وصل حلمه للنور
رفض ظلم النظام و أتحرر زي العصفور

صوتنا هيشرف ولدنا و يرجع تاني امجادنا
رجعنا حريتنا و شرفنا أجدادنا

و لسة سامع صوت الميدان  بييجلجل من تاني
و الله عليك يا ميدان يا ماسح أحزاني

كنتوا فين لما هرب الأمان من البيوت، كنتوا فين لما بابك يا بلدي عشش عليه العنكبوت.

 كنتوا فين لما هرب الأمان من البيوت،
كنتوا فين لما بابك يا بلدي عشش عليه العنكبوت.

كنتو فين لما الخوف ملا الشوارع،
كنت فين يا دفعة ؟ كنت في مشوار و راجع

و هروبك يا مؤمن يا ترى كان بإيدك
ولا حفظ على النظام ، و طاعة لتعليمات سيدك

طلعت ضعيف و جبان
عايزنا نصدق إن سيدك  في أيده الأمان

لكن لا يا بلد شبابك رجالة
مش هانخاليي مكان للرعاع ولحوثالاه

و أه يا بلد معلهش سيد غير الله
و سيدك يا مؤمن عن طريقه تاه

لكن طول ما فينا روح المقومة و طول ما نورك يا بلدي طالع
نراك يا ظالم هتفضل أيدا و هانبعد عنا  المواجع

و هنصقت النظام و هنرجع الأمان
و طول يا بلدي مانتي خايفة شعبك عمره ما هاينام

Crushing Egypt’s’ Rejuvenation

“I cannot teach you violence, as I do not myself believe in it. I can only teach you not to bow your heads before any one even at the cost of your life.”~ Ghandi

After nine days of struggle and hard work, we as Egyptians achieved victory yet still not the maximum victory we were seeking, and it even might be a temporary victory and an act of fraud from the Egyptian regime. During the struggles we faced in the Egyptian “Intifada” we have learned a lot and we have gained a lot as a nation. Before going into deep analysis of the situation and mentioning its pros and cons I would like to reveal on the string of events that took place from Tuesday the 25th of Jan till Tuesday the 1st of Feb.

The first day of the protests which was on the 25th of Jan, was a completely peaceful demonstration from few Egyptians, it was motivating and anti-destruction its aim was to ask for our rights as Egyptians and the right of the nation. The same events took place on the 26th and 27th of Jan, and still the world was peaceful despite some attempts of violence from the police on the protesters and vice-versa. During the first three days of the protests the daily life of Egyptians wasn’t affected at all, people used to go to work and come back and some still go out with friends. On the night of the third day the preparation for the “Rage Friday” started and the aim of that day was to “Bring down the Egyptian Regime”. The ghost of communications and the internet caused a huge threat to the government therefore the have cutoff all internet and mobile services for that day. Still that didn’t prevent people from protesting peacefully and cutting off communication tools provoked many Egyptians and that caused an increase in the protestor’s number.

The 28th of Jan was an historical day, and still a day full of maximum violence as the Egyptian police deliberately killed peaceful protestors, whether by live bullets or by the police cars. That act caused more and more rage among the Egyptians. Everyone was sympathizing with the protestors and everyone was with the demonstration and its ultimate fight for a huge cause. Late at that night the Egyptian president made a speech about reforming the government but still that wasn’t enough for the Egyptians because that was not what they want, so the protest was still active and it demanded to be active for the next day despite the order of the curfew. Moving to the 29th of Jan which was a day full of fear and threat to every Egyptian, Mobiles were back on but internet was still off. During that day criminals and gangsters covered Egypt, they caused threat in the streets and in our homes, the country was not a safe place anymore, and with all of that there was no clear sign of the police. The suspicious disappearing of the police around the existing of these criminals frightened the safety of Egypt, the Egyptian army didn’t leave the Egyptian at that critical point and it tried to keep them safe, but still it wasn’t enough. Men and women from all ages went to down the streets with weapons to protect their countries and their homes from the criminals.

While on the scene of the demonstration everyone was still protesting and the Army was keeping the protestors safe. It was announced than that the president have hired “Omar Soliman” head of Egyptian intelligence as his vice-president, and Ahmed Shafiq as the prime minster. Still it was not enough and people asked for more, they asked for Mubarak to leave and they asked for a reform in the constitution and in the parliament. During the 30th and the 31st of Jan still the country wasn’t safe and still people were protecting their streets and their homes but the police made an appearance and still no sign of the internet. The stock market was closed and banks were closed and the curfew moved from 4 PM to 3 PM, the life of every Egyptian was on hold, but that was the price of liberty. The Economy went down and the tourism went down, and each country sent flights to their citizens to evacuate them. Also the new government of ministries was formed but still some names didn’t change.

On the victorious first day of February the president made a speech claiming that he will reform to articles from the constitution and that he will reform the parliament and that he will not elect him self in the upcoming elections on September, and that was still not enough, the crowd demanded for him to go. At the same time protest took place that was pro Mubarak and didn’t want him to leave, that was quite suspicious! Now people at El Tahrir Square are split into half, some are satisfied for the time being and others are still demanding that he has to leave. Until the massive destruction took place, the pro Mubarak protest that is most likely to be created by the government crushed the wonderful symphony that have been created and caused nothing but chaos and destruction.

During the “Intifada” we gained lots of things but still we lost a lot! Now we have our dignity back, our voice and our right. Youth are now empowered, and we know that we can do a lot. We also have discovered that we can protect ourselves from any harm and we can pass any struggles. About 80% of our demands have been achieved and its time for us to have some patience, and give space for the changes to take place, and if not, the Tharir square is still there and we are still alive (hopefully). We don’t want to destroy the country nor our economy, I know that we can reform the nation and the economy and we can make them prosper again but we just have to be a bit patient. Let’s not cause for the demonstration to loose the sympathy of the people who are at home. That was what I wanted to say right before I saw what happened today, the though of not trusting the government was proven true after I tried as much as I can to give them a chance.

Mubarak never resembled the figure of the father to me, and I never ever wanted him in power, he and his regime made lots of unforgivable mistakes and I know that we have no trust what so ever for the government, and the decisions that he took might be temporary just to please us but still lets have some patience, but they didn’t give us a chance to be patient. “When I despair, I remember that all through history the ways of truth and love have always won. There have been tyrants, and murderers, and for a time they can seem invincible, but in the end they always fall. Think of it--always.”~ Ghandi

Mubarak is asking to open gates of conversation between the government and the nation and he and the government are mad because we didn’t accept that invitation, but it is just too late for conversation because they have never gave us that opportunity. This opportunity just took place out of his fear. Mubarak doesn’t want to stop the blood shed, his regime didn’t stop killing the protesters at El Tahrir, if he really wanted another chance and a another opportunity he shouldn’t have crushed the spirit the people have created. El Tahrir Square is nothing but a mess today; unlike yesterday the people were cleaning the streets and protesting peacefully. It’s just not the time to have some morality and humanity that we haven’t been treated by in that country.

Cutting of the internet provoked Egyptians and revealed the threat that youth cause to the Egyptian regime, and that caused people to increase in the protest as well as the curfew. They tried to cutoff AlJazeera so the truth wont reach Egyptians and that was stupid, they were pressured and that gave them a chance to make mistakes, lets just wait in silence and observe the situation critically. . “In the attitude of silence the soul finds the path in a clearer light, and what is elusive and deceptive resolves itself into crystal clearness. Our life is a long and difficult quest after Truth.”~ Ghandi

They provoked us, blackmailed and threatened us by deliberately depriving us from safety and pulling away the police so we can learn that we wont be safe without them, but we proved them wrong, we managed to protect ourselves and to communicate and to form the million man march, and have a loud and clear voice. As much as I want patience and I want us to wait and stop the blood shed, I just cant stand what I am seeing in Tahrir now, if he was a person that wanted to give himself and us a new chance he wouldn’t have sent people to kill today. If he wanted a chance to talk he would have given us that chance from the first day, rather than killing hundreds on Friday the 28th of Jan.


I am just so confused about what should be done I want the best for Egypt and its people, I want to raise the economy again and I want people to feel safe, but still if we held our voices now we can never make a move. Especially after the last attempt of violence that took place today! If he cares about the country as every body says, why the hell did he send people to kill and cause chaos today? If he loves his people he should just step down, and Mr. President I wanted you to leave the country gracefully with your dignity and self respect and with our respect to you and to your achievements but you gave us no choice and no space, you crushed our dreams and crushed the wonderful spirits that have been created during the “Intifada”, if you just love the country and love the people even a little please just step down, I am not asking you to leave the country if you don’t want to, but just step down now for the sake of Egypt!

Celebrating the NEW Year with OLD Memories!

Two days ago, I was planning on writing a post about the new year, and how each and every person should be optimistic and stick to their dreams and goals. I was going to write about accomplishments and ambition, and mentioning all the great things in life we all should be grateful for. I was demanding a new beginning with no peaking at the past nor its bad memories!

The engine of my dreams was speeding and speeding , and my optimistic and successful future was paved, and the upcoming bright to-be future of my country started to sparkle. Its either I was driving so fast or there is just a problem with the road I was driving on, my dreams were crushed and my hope for a fruitful years was demolished! Reading about the Alexandria Church Bombing Incident broke my heart and stopped my engine of hope and dreams. For a while I couldn't believe what happened, but deep inside I knew it was expected. Instead of celebrating the new year and new beginnings we looked back at old devastating memories that will ruin the relations between all Egyptians, Muslims & Christians. So rather than Celebrating new beginnings we are getting closer to the end, the end of the Arab nation as whole!

I am not going to talk about politics nor I am going to talk about the internal and extremal affairs of the Egyptian government that did absolutely nothing and acted in pure negativity. Nor the troubles that all the Arab nation is facing, and not even mentioning parts of both religions that are against destruction. But I am going to talk about the Nation and the people who deserves a leap of faith to hang on to, the people who deserves to celebrate their happiness together with no discrimination against any race nor religion, a nation that should unite in order to overcome all the obstacles faced during the last 25 years.

How could we be looking at old memories? Simply because in October 2005 an incident that had the same "Destructive Goals" which is the huge buzz and the discrimination between both Christians and Muslims rather than keeping it together as one nation, the started protesting and killing each other, with know awareness what so ever of who is behind the "Destructive Buzz. As for today people are still looking behind at incidents that are close to the 2005 incidents, they are firing hatred among themselves rather than sticking together at this dim moments Egypt is facing.

As a little girl I remember watching TV and seeing Alexandria as beautiful place, seeing a home for Christians and Muslims and back then even Jews used to live there. The only thing that ever concerned them was looking after each other, sure they used to fight but as one nation, not against each other! I believe that this case didn't appear only at TV it was a pure reflection of reality and a vivid view of the Egyptian nation as whole, not only Alexandria.

Before wrapping up my post, I have one question to ask, if the person or the organization that did that just wanted to destruct the bodies of Christians, Why didn't they bombard the whole church? It would have been an easy task for them to do, but NO, the aim was to destruct the mind and the soul. The aim was to shed hatred among both Christians and Muslims, and assisting them in destructing each other, physically and morally. So, we must not give up we must hold on to the bonds between us, cause dear friends Egypt has had enough!

Starting this post, I had a pessimistic look at my future and the future of the nation as a whole, but I believe that the engine of hope and dreams should be turned back on, but as for myself I wont be able to turn it all by my own, I need my family and Christians and Muslims friends to work with me, I know that what happened is unbearable and I know that a lot of victims died, and I am deeply sorry for that. But we have to unite and stick together and try to prevent any upcoming destructive incidents. It's time to look at the light even if it is so dim and so far away, it time to take a leap of faith and hold on together, and to all youth out there its our time!

Happy New Year every one, and to all my Christians sisters & brothers my deepest condolences for you all, and remember what didn't kill us should always makes us stronger!

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Romantic Mood

I am not into romantic movies that much, but I feel an urge for needing them these days. Maybe because I am missing out in romance in my life now and maybe because I feel the need to be needed and I am missing on being missed and being taken care of.

Although I feel complete, but there is just this missing part, that doesn't seem to be completed anytime soon. There is a thrill and a shiver I am missing, there is passion that I can't find and there is love that I have and absolutely love but still there is something missing.

Well, that was a bit hard for me to say but I said it, cause I promised my blog I won't keep anything away from it and ii will always be honest. Its sad that I am personify-ing my blog, but it seems that its my only happy place now. My blog understands me, and give me a chance to say and share everything, without getting board or refusing to watch. My blog gives me love that I never experienced!

I feel so weird after writing all of that, anyways I am watching now a movie that I don't really like but for my sudden need for romance I want to watch. I am watching "habibi daaeman" a romantic Egyptian movie. :)

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Change is Possible!

Referring to my last post|.Egyptian Elections 2010: A Message to All Youth;

I wanted to say that change can take place and that it is already taking place. A couple of days ago before the elections, two Egyptian Facebook pages have been closed, Khaled Saeed & Mohamed El-Baradei. Khaled Saeed is an Egyptian young man who used to live in Alexandria, Khaled was victim of the emergency law that has been taken place in Egypt since the 80's after Sadat assassination. Mohamed El-Baradei is a very promising candidate to the next presidential election (that is if the government gave him a chance). Those two pages were closed due to their opposition to the government and its laws, the question is why close them? Because social media is the most powerful medium that government can't control.

I have to say that I was shocked after these two pager were closed, i thought that social media have lost its power, and that it can be controlled like every other medium is controlled and censored, but 1 day and the pages were activated again. It wasn't a smart move from the Facebook team to close the pages in the first place, because most of its Arab World members are from Egypt. Due to members requests, messages and constant complains the pages were activated again. A small window of hope was unlocked, a small window of change took place and a voice have been made.

The Facebook members that complained chose to change and chose to have a voice, and their number outranked the government. Bravo Facebook members!

The following is the message The Facebook team sent to the members:

Egyptian Elections 2010: A Message to All Youth

الشيخ امام عيسى   العيسوى بيه

Its the end of November 2010, and its time for the Parliament election in Egypt. So the parliament is supposed to work hard to, work out the problems of the country and please its people, I doubt that this is the case in any country not specifically in Egypt, but its most common in Egypt. 

The video above, is a song by El-Shai5 Emam Eissa, Lyrics: Ahmed Foaad Negm, both are prominent Egyptian figures. This song was made a long time ago, before people start realize the failures of the parliament and the Egyptian government, but still the failures existed. I believe that the government and the parliament have been always the same, having the same flaws and the same corruption existed. The problem is within us, within the people, back then we had artists who opposed the government, writers, actors, directors, singers, politicians, workers, business men, employees and even students.

The government is proceeding  in its corruption because of us, the elections remain to be unfair because of us, we don't have voice because we chose to shut our mouth and shut our ears .We don't have an identity nor self respect because we chose so, "They can't take our self respect, if we don't give it to them" ~ Ghandi. Its all about us, we chose to be brainwashed we chose to watch the media they are providing us with, we can choose to be better and we can choose to have a voice. 

So, a message to every one who wants to change the country, change yourself first, change your beliefs and your perspectives, change your attitude towards the country, and chose to have a voice; even if it wont be heard at the beginning, I believe that our population is point of strength not weakness, as they convince us it is.Our number is defiantly bigger than their number, Think about it!

  

Inception

In the oxford dictionary inception is defined as the beginning of something, such as an undertaking; an initiation. Others define inception as a date on which something was introduced or started. Basically an inception is a start of something from its origin.  How can inception be related to the human beings, and how can it be related to their thoughts and ideas. Inception is an idea implanted in someone’s head that can probably change his perception towards something and thus their lives.

 Inception is so strong and it spreads like a virus, but yet it starts with a small and simple idea. Inception is simply your subconscious and how it reacts or believes certain things. Inception can come from a song or a word or even a movie or a book that will change the way we see things subconsciously without us knowing we are affected. The article will be divided into two parts, first is how can people possible create inception the second we will discuss how media can change lives, and implant ideas in people subconscious, does media know its doing this, is it agenda setting do they mean to implant inception?

Let me introduce something I would like to call the inceptive method which is the science of planting images and ideas into a subject's brain. The inceptive method consists of three parts, “The inceptor”, “The Inception” and “The Inceptee” Those three parts go through a channel that is called a subliminal channel.

                                            

The inceptor or the initiator is the one that embed the idea; the inception is the process of embedding the idea, while the Inceptee is the receiver of the idea. The subliminal channel is the subconscious mind, which subconsciously process the idea that eventually becomes its reality.

Inception is so deep, u have to get deep into someone subconscious and plant the simplest idea, the key hear is to choose a scenario that suits  the Inceptee and relate to their experience and manipulate their realities. Its not easy to plant ideas cause the subconscious mind will subconsciously activate its defense mechanism and fight the inceptor and that is how we protect our minds. At a point of your life u are somehow trained to protect your self from invaders whether physically, or mentally. Inception is like invasions of the mind, thus we protect our mind by referring to past experience and knowledge about a certain topic. 

If your thoughts are stable enough you won't be scared of being incepted but you will never know that you are, u just know that u are subconsciously facing a different experience that that  was not installed in your mind, thus it doesn’t exist in your frame of reference. Inception plants a simple idea, yet you help the inceptor of knowing what simple idea will affect you, than you become possessed by that idea, thinking about absolutely nothing but the idea you helped embedding in your mind. 

How can one person create inception? Close your eyes and imagine with me your darkest place, a place you fear the most, a place you feel unsafe in. Open your eyes now, probably no one saw this dark place but you, but are you sure of that? What if someone was in your head? What if someone was standing by you when you were closing your eyes, and monitored your frightened facial expressions? If you closed your eyes and imagined the whole experience and the idea of someone watching you crossed your mind, than my friend you have been invaded. This is a simple idea of inception, inception is much deeper than that, if I would create an inception in your head, I have to go deep into your fears and inner thoughts and study them very well so I can know what will affect you. 

Let’s search together for someone in our lives that we blindly trust and that is a credible source of information to us, yet he is so close to our mind and heart. Will you believe anything that person tells you? The answer varies, it depends on the depth of your subconscious mind and the way you see things. Your subconscious mind might believe the idea he was talking about, but you will need your consciousness  for inception to generate. How is that possible?  Inception is created when the idea is implanted in your subconscious mind, that when you wake up it becomes your reality, your consciousness to live with this reality and to act upon it.

In the movie Inception the idea is incepted in a dream, which is the subconscious mind, therefore when you wake up you will think but nothing but the idea incepted. Can this be inverted?  Well sometimes thinking too much of something make u dream of it and then the process happens starting from your real life ending in your dreams, to some people dream is reality. Meaning that they think too much of something, maybe something they fear, but they wont act upon it or believe it, but dreaming it makes it real for them. The dreams sometimes make the idea realistic for the people.  For example you were thinking about death, probably due to something you heard or saw, you keep thinking of that idea so deeply, accordingly you start dreaming of death. Now death is your reality you’re possessed by the idea of dying, that every time you cross the streets you feel that your life will end. The question is where did the idea of death come from? Did it come from a person you talked to, a close person that passed away or maybe a movie, or even a book? That is where the next idea takes place, inception in media!

 

Media inception is so typical and it possibly happen everyday even every second, but how and who is responsible for that inception. During my studies in media I was introduced to a term which is subliminal messages. Subliminal messages are hidden messages inserted in the media that are not supposed to be seen. Subliminal messaging therefore refers to the act of sending messages directly to the subconscious mind. Taking a deeper look, subliminal messages is implemented in the media by the media or the government to deliver a certain message or even sell a certain product to the subconscious mind of their audience. Therefore the audience is subliminally brainwashed. That is exactly what happens in inception; and idea takes place, it has to refer to the Inceptee (audience in the media scenario), using a subliminal channel (TV, Book, Song, Advertising), and voila you have been incepted without your knowledge!

The question is does the government or the media know that they are actually using the Inceptive method, well sadly they do. How will they control people without following the inceptive method, how will they shape society, demolish identities and destruct cultures? This is their only way to do so, and sadly people are victims of this manipulative process.  Let me introduce another theory which is the Agenda setting theory. The agenda-setting theory is the theory that the mass-news media have a large influence on audiences by their choice of what stories to consider newsworthy and how much prominence and space to give them. As mentioned you have a big hand in causing inception by giving your inceptors clues to your personality and thoughts, by deciding what and what not to do. It’s the same in media, according to the agenda setting theory. You let the media tell you what to watch; you set your agenda respectively. Yet you still don’t know you are being possessed and sometimes owned.

Concluding, inception doesn’t have to be evil, the idea itself might be something for the good of the society, or even for your own good. You just have to be careful of who knows the keys to your personality and mind, and why and how will they use them. 

By the way, the movie was great; it was one of the best movies I have ever seen! Great job Nolan, wonderful choice De Caprio.

Goodbye world, till next time

In The Jungle!

Instability! How many times a day you feel unstable, unsafe and lost. Instability has its own  definition for everyone, for me instability has to do with the fear of being violated, whether on the streets or from friends or even family members, but if i would have only one definition of instability it will be impossible for me, so I will categorize my insecurities and instabilities.1) Socially: Fear of being alone and being left out. 2) Emotionally: Fear of being alone and unappreciated. 3) Education/Career: Fear of not accomplishing my dreams and fear of failure, fear of being ordinary, just nothing but ordinary. 4) Spiritually: Fear of not being close to God, fear of not being what he wants me to be. 5) Uncatgorized: Fear of not being who I am!

Well I guess every one can have his own categories that define insatiability. To sum it all up , our instabilities are like different groups of animals, some of them are living peacefully with us, and yet they can be annoying and others can possibly eat us. Jungle animals, they are the unbearable creatures that can possibly harm us, but in the jungle there are rules that guard every herd, the rules states that every herd, should stay away from the properties of each herd. No herd is ever allowed to violate the privacy of any other unless they might have major threat on the mentioned herd.

These rules are simple to follow, and they do guard animals, but they will never guard a human, so if a human was stuck in the jungle it will be impossible for him to get out safely, so he has to make up his own rules, his own lifestyle so he can cope with the animals. He wont be unharmed but when he learn how to tame them all the suffering will end. and the old scars will remain, but by time you will also learn how to heal. So, in the jungle you can survive, so that is how you can survive with your instabilities but sometimes just sometimes you might fail, and when you fail, you consult someone, in the jungle world it will be the Lion as he can control every one, but in real life , its the closest animal to you!

Bits & Pieces

So, I know it has been so long since my last post, it is just that I didn't feel like writing, although  I had so much in mind. I don't know what should I call the state I was in but it was close to a coma! Let's cut it short I am writing this post to talk about many things but what really triggered me to write again is something that have been bothering me in the past 5 days. A series of unwanted dreams or as may I call it a series of unwanted NIGHTMARES. For the 5th day on the row I am having a dream that is killing me, it is almost the same dream but with slight changes from one to another or even sometimes different but having the same meaning!

LONELINESS that is the core idea of my dreams, the fact that I am always alone and that I always have a problem of fitting in, and the fact that I am betrayed and left alone from people that I think they are close to my heart. The feeling of loneliness and worrying doesn't want to leave me alone I a m full of fear and this fear doesn't want to leave me alone. I need to feel safe so I can sleep, but I don't know what can possibly make me feel safe, while every thing around me gives me a feeling of fear and worry. Well Hope it stops soon and I do hope I can find the way back to my pillow again, cause I really miss it.

Another thing that is on my mind heavily these days is the fact that I miss my pen, or my Keyboard :), I just miss writing, Yesterday I was looking at my old poetry and my old articles and I asked myself " Why they hell did I stop writing?"  Writing was who I am and now I stopped knowing who I am, I lost my identity and I lost my soul.

Imagine yourself at a restaurant and you order your favorite mushroom steak, with vegetables and rice on the side *Yummy*, but when the order comes, you are shocked it is still a steak but not your favorite steak, the mushrooms are missing and your favorite garnishes are not there, you think and then say to yourself this is not a complete meal! This exactly how I am feeling; a plate of mushroom steak without mushrooms nor garnishes. I just need lots of things to complete me, these things are within me but maybe I am to scared to let them out or maybe they don't have a chance to get out or maybe I am even too lazy to get them out!

I just want my life to be complete and me writing again is one of the things that will sure add up to my life, I miss my critical eye that triggers me into writing even if I will write lame poetry or meaningless short stories, I know I have the talent and I know I have the passion but maybe I lost the enthusiasm. For me to be able to write again anod retain back my critical eye I have to start reading again like I used to, I have to widen my horizon, I have to be me again, Cause all the good things that makes me the best mushroom steak dish are gone they no longer exist and that is killing me.

A thing that I need to do, is starting listening to more music and new music that will certainly get me back on track again, and I desperately need a camera I need to take photos and learn photography all over again, I want to start seeing life in camera lens again. I need to get busy and most of all I need to have a freakin social life! I need to feel the fun of hanging out with friends at shopping malls going through cloths, I need to have lunch with a dear friend and start talking and laughing till our mouths get dry. I need to have someone I can go out with when I am feeling lonely and bored, and most of all I need someone to talk to!

Well that is it for now!

Insomnia!

If you can't sleep, then get up and do something instead of lying there worrying.  It's the worry that gets you, not the lack of
sleep.  ~Dale Carnegie

Deep in the bosom of the gentle night
Is when I search for the light
Pick up my pen and start to write
I struggle, I fight dark forces in the clear moonlight
Without fear
Insomnia
I can't get no sleep

Faithless-Insomnia Lyrics

I Can't sleep, I just can't sleep, I am worried about many things, looking forward for many things and scared about many things. I am worried about my future, worried about the change, worried about failing, worried about not accomplishing my plans, worried about not having fun, worried about love and again worried about love, but must of all I am worried about not having a life.

During these 2 months I wish to do many things and I wish that lots of things will happen, and I am not sure if they will happen or not and I am not sure if I can reach the target through these couple of months or not. I think  think a lot I just can't stop thinking, it is killing me. 

Anyways from the deepest part of my heart I am wishing, and from the deepest part of my soul I am praying!

May God Bless Us!

N.B: I Love You!

Noor E Khuda Lyrics & Translation

Ajnabi mod hai,

What strange times are these

Khauf har aur hai,

There’s fear everywhere

Har nazar pe dhuan chha gaya

Everything appears foggy

Pal bhar mein jaane kya kho gaya

In an instant something is lost

Aasman zard hai

The sky is pale

 Aahein bhi sard hai,

Breath is frigid

Tan se saaya juda ho gaya

Shadows are separated from bodies

Pal bhar mein jaane kya kho gaya

In an instant something is lost

Saans ruk si gayi

Breath flows haltingly

Jism chhil sa gaya

Body feels like it’s been skinned

Toote khwabon ke manzar pe

On broken dreams

Tera jahan chal diya

Your world survives

Noor E Khuda Noor E Khuda

Light of God

tu kahan chhupa hai humein yeh bata

Tell us where you’re hiding

Noor E Khuda Noor E Khuda

Light of God

yun naa humse nazarein phira.

Please don’t turn away from us

Noor E Khuda ..

Nazar-e-karam farma hi de

Shower your grace on us

Deen-o-dharam ko jaga hi de

Awaken mercy and goodness

Jalti hui tanhaiyaan

Burning loneliness…..

Roothi hui parchhaiyaan

Angry shadows…..

Kaisi udi yeh hawa

What sort of wind is this blowing

Chhaya yeh kaisa sama

What kind of atmosphere is this

Ruh jam si gai

The soul is frozen

Waqt tham sa gaya

Time stands still

Toote khwabon ke manzar pe

On broken dreams

Tera jahan chal diya

Your world survives

Noor E Khuda Noor E Khuda

Light of God

tu kahan chhupa hai humein yeh bata

Tell us where you’re hiding

Noor E Khuda Noor E Khuda

Light of God

yun naa humse nazarein phira.

Please don’t turn away from us

Noor E Khuda ..

Noor E Khuda ..

Ujde se lamhon ko aas teri,

Desolate moments hope for you

Zakhmi dilon ko hai pyaas teri

Wounded hearts thirst for you

Har dhadkan ko talaash teri,

Every heartbeat searches for you

Tera milta nahi hai pata,

But no one can find you

Khaali aankhein khud se sawaal karein,

Empty eyes ask each other

Aman ki cheekh behaal karein,

Peace screams in agony and pain

Behta lahoo fariyaad karein,

Rivers of blood plead with you

Tera mit ta chala hai nishaan,

Every trace of you is being wiped out

Ruh jam si gai

The soul is frozen

Waqt tham sa gaya

Time stands still

Toote khwabon ke manzar pe

On broken dreams

Tera jahan chal diya

Your world survives

Noor E Khuda Noor E Khuda

Light of God

tu kahan chhupa hai humein yeh bata

Tell us where you’re hiding

Noor E Khuda Noor E Khuda

Light of God

yun naa humse nazarein phira.

Please don’t turn away from us

Noor E Khuda ..

Noor E Khuda ..

Noor E Khuda Noor E Khuda

Light of God

aaj kal tu kahan hai yeh bataa

where are you?

Noor E Khuda Noor E Khuda

Light of God

aaj kal tu kahan hai yeh bataa

where are you?

Noor E Khuda Noor E Khuda

Light of God

Kya yeh sach hai ki tu hum se Khafa

Are you really upset with us?

Noor E Khuda (My Name Is Khan): A new perspective on Life

“The most essential factor is persistence - the determination never to allow your energy or enthusiasm to be dampened by the discouragement that must inevitably come.”

Khan is a man of persistence, A man that overcame all the challenges and all his fears.

He didn't give up on anything:

He didn't give up on education

He didn't give up on family

He didn't give up on change

He didn't give up on goodness

He didn't give up on love

He didn't give up in his religion

and most of all he didn't give up on himself. He went through many things to deliver his message and to show the whole world that he is right he had to show every one that Islam is a pure religion he fought and fought until he reached his goal. This movie has a lot of noble messages a movie that anyone should learn from, and as for me this movie had a high influence on me and yet my persistence will grow no matter the challenges I face, I will keep on going

“When life knocks you down you have two choices- stay down or get up.”


N.B: I Love the Song , Stay Tuned for the lyrics and its translation ;)

A New Journey!

"What is now proved was once only imagined"

As time goes by and as people evolve their needs and wants and even dreams change. Some people start thinking deeper and some stop thinking at all.

Through out all my life I figured out one thing, which is: "Change comes from within" its not about appearance and its not about a certain behavior. Its all about inner change, if a person believes that he has the will to change and develop he will. You cant lie to people and tell them that you have developed and changed cause at the end you are only lying to yourself.

A small advice: If you are going to make believe that you have changed, Visualize the person that you wish to be, cause your own imagination will be true. You just have to grow your will to change and never pretend!

I wish to change and I need to change and I will change. My journey will start with visualizing the state I want to be in, and not the person who I want to be, cause simply I don't want to be anyone other then myself, I just want to develop myself.

My Journey Will Start From Today!